The only love I want in this world is yours and if I can’t have it, I want another world.
Are you ever just overwhelmed by the horrifying thought that maybe, nobody ACTUALLY wants you around? And it’s not that you think everyone hates you, but it’s just that you’re not special to anyone? And that its really kind of sucky that you’re about 98% sure that nobody thinks “Wow, I just really like talking to her.” and that you could probably just disappear without anyone caring that much?
Have you ever hated yourself that even looking at yourself in the mirror hurts and you’re just filled with sadness and all you can do is sleep because sleep is the closet thing to not feeling anything for a while
You know what one of the shittest parts of having an anxiety disorder is? How you can’t really tell anyone that you have anxiety because its so goddamn hard so people just think you hate them and that you’re ignoring them or else they think you’re just boring and have nothing to say when really you literally feel like you’re choking just trying to get the words out.
I wish I was someone else even for just one day so I can get out of my own head.